Please Excuse Me While I Vent

This is somewhat “random”, but please excuse me while I vent. It’s raining hard outside, hubby’s not home yet and here I am in my room reflecting about what’s going on in my life lately. 
Cue in Alanis Morisette’s You Learn

Two years ago, a few people [indirectly] told me that if edible makeups were invented, they would feed it to me. I don’t care how you’d interpret that, but it was delivered with the intention to ridicule me. Apparently, to them I was a b*tch obsessed with makeup. It hit a chord, to be honest. And at that time, I was ready to shut down this blog and hide in my closet. But then, doors opened up to make me realize that their words aren’t enough to shake me. 
I chose to rise above the circumstance because after all, words are just words until you let them affect you. I pushed myself and thought about why I write about beauty in the first place. I continued sharing the things that make me look good and feel good. I came to a point where I was obsessed, like my day wasn’t complete if I couldn’t blog. Nevermind if it’s just about a cheap nail polish I bought out of sheer boredom. I just need to sit down, write away, and get over the urge to blog. 
And then life happened…
I got married and my priorities aren’t just the same anymore. Not that I regret settling down. God, no! I married a wonderful man and that I will forever be thankful for. But you know, juggling a day job and household chores (without a helper) gets the better of me. And to think, I don’t even have a child yet. Hands down to all the super moms out there who do everything with grace and serenity. 
I can’t tell you about my boring daily routine, but know this – sometimes, I find myself lying down and staring at the ceiling thinking about absolutely nothing. Other times, I find myself blabbering to my husband and nagging him about the tiniest of things – “Put your dirty clothes in the hamper”, “put the toiletries back to the rack after using them”, “wash the glass after drinking” etc..etc. I feel like a psychob*tch sometimes, but I know it’s the exhaustion poisoning my mind and pushing me to say those things. 
This blog has suffered a good amount of negligence these past few months. I think I even mentioned in one of my recent posts that I want to quit-yet again. But you know what? Every time I think about saying goodbye to the blogosphere, opportunities would come knocking in. It humbles me whenever brands reach out to me and offer their generosity.
Maybe it’s the universe telling me that this blog has a purpose. That perhaps, I do make some actual sense from all the kaartehan (as what some people would call it) I’ve been posting. Maybe, just maybe, someone out there found some value in this blog and helped her see the beauty in everything. I don’t know, I may just be assuming things, but that’s what I want to believe. 
There! Feels good to finally get rid of  this lump in my throat. I know I went a little too dramatic, but this is me saying, I am sort of back. I hope I could find inspiration from all of you who follow this blog and believe that I deserve a spot in your list. 
Cheers! 🙂 
Julie Alontaga is the Beauty Content Creator and Editor of As Told By Julz. She works as a VA-SEO Specialist for a Web Development Company based in Australia. When she's not at work, she spends her free time binge watching movies and TV series, reading books, cooking/baking, or playing SIMS 4.

8 Comments

  1. Juvy
    November 7, 2014

    Go on! I love reading new posts from you. I am also kind of thinking about quitting blogging, or buying new things, but my blog actually takes away my stress. Whenever I take photos, share my loved product, and when people comment, I feel very happy!

    Hope you can visit my blog too. hehe.

    xo, Juvy
    http://www.plumpcheeks.com

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  2. Rae O.
    November 7, 2014

    Glad you decided to come back. There's not a lot of people in my feeds who are outside MM.

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  3. Julie Ann Tolentino
    November 7, 2014

    Aww thank you 🙂

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  4. Julie Ann Tolentino
    November 7, 2014

    Best decision ever. I hope I can sustain it though 🙂

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  5. Chamee Pecson
    November 7, 2014

    Push lang Julz! :))

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  6. Julie Ann Tolentino
    November 7, 2014

    Thanks, Cham. Hehe 🙂

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  7. cris estacio
    December 11, 2014

    Ignore those haters!! I'm your new fan here…hehe
    Actually I just love bloggers who aren't afraid to show their flaws. Someone who we can relate with. I also write review or blogs but not to the extent like other bloggers out there. Mine is just simple. I just want to share what I thought about a certain product that the I used. It's merely sharing information with other people out there. Sometimes kasi I find other vloggers snob and at the same time it's like sponsored na lang. Most of them share products that are expensive and that most girls from middle or even low classes can't relate. Yun lang…..:)

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  8. Julie Ann Tolentino
    December 11, 2014

    Hi Cris. Couldn't agree more. That's why I always try to feature local and affordable brands for ladies like me who are on a budget. 🙂

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